My lost Possession

What is life without some sentiments. Well I know at times it sounds so weird and stupid, but somehow I just couldnt change.
I have lots and lots of small sentiments..harmless to anyone..and the happiness you get out of it is wow priceless.


Be it the exam or be it a interview, be it a special day in the calendar, or be it a day you
want to make special, be it a card given by your best friend or be it even a choclate paper..everything mattered. I had bags and bags of such cards and papers and even gift wrappers. After marriage when we shifted I lost them all. Even now I keep them...
Meeting people close to heart on some important days in another sentiment..:)
Like friendship day or new year or your birthday I believe that if you happen to meet those on those days then the whole of year you will be together.
Anyways this is not about my favorite sentiments...Because right now am feeling sad about something I had lost.

Somehow in our home my parents are not used to give surprise gifts to me and my sis. After I started going to college and started earning part time, I started that culture. Giving surprise gifts to my mom, dad and sis. And on my birthdays I just love to surprise them with gifts. Wow the smile you get to see is just priceless and the happiness you get when you see that smile is...just wow!!! So I am not used to getting gifts from my parents. And the first time I got a gift from them is on my marriage. Actually in our custom, after marriage as a gift parents will gift their daughter a steel cupboard with a locker. It is supposed to bring wealth and you should keep it always.

After the expenses of my marriage I know how difficult it is for them to buy it and since my birthday was immediately after marriage my mom had brought it and gifted it.
Well, by that time steel cupboard with a mirror was out of fashion but who cares..what mattered was the love behind it. When I used to stand in front of the mirror in the cupboard, It used to be like the Harry potters mirror in room of requirement...;)


After some days we moved to Banglore and I did make sure it was safely delivered to Banglore without a crack. Then we moved to Hyderabad and I took it there also. Finally we shited to Singapore, I couldnt bring it there but left it in hyderabad. The cupboard was filled with all my silk sarees i had got in my wedding, my photo albums and all the me stuff. Every time I go to India, that became my storage space.

And then last year when we were thinking of renovating the house, the topic that came is to sell all old stuffs and buy new ones. The first target was my steel cupboard...oops..I literally cried..and told a BIG NO..Everyone said Grow up..it looks so out of place..well the same thing was said about one of the thali am wearing it was bit too big and now a days no one wears it..But who cares..it was given by my mom. And the same applied to the cupboard. So I told a big no to my dearest hubby and my in laws.
Couple of times we had a discussion where I would finally finish it with NO. May be it is stupid sentiment..but somehow I wanted to keep it forever and ever as a keepsake.

Finally last decemeber when I went to India for vacation oops the steel cupboard was not there..I thought since we dont have much space may be they kept in a store room. so I didnt ask anyone about it because I dont wanted to be upset when we have lots of function. Finally I asked my mom in law that I have to take some wedding sarees and where is the steel cupboard...and she told that is all not there..some of the sarees from it she had kept it other wooden cupboard..

Oops..I had lost it..My prized possession what my mom gave along with it there were other cards and gifts and stuff which was inside it..which would look as a garbage for anyone other than me...Am not able to continue writing as already tears are blocking my eyes..
I would may be ask my mom to gift me another one..

Is it worth having such sentiments?

Vacation in Chennai

This time our vacation was too hectic. We had lots to do and I shouldnt even be calling it a vacation. We had 2 weeks leave and in that we had planned our grahapravesam, our daughters ear piercing and our in laws sashtipoorthy (60th wedding).

And since everything is to be done in hyderabad, I was able to stay in chennai only for one day.Am going to chennai after 2 years and get only one day there so I had planned so many things to do in one day.

I had to meet my college friends, school friends, Had to plan a surprise birthday party for my 85 years old granny who is the most active person I had ever met, Had to spend some me time with her, Have to spend as much time possible gossipping with my sis and also with my nephew, have to go to my two favorite temples which always had been part of me till the time I was in chennai, any sorrow or any joy, whether its exam or interview , whether its happy moment or heart broken I would always get
peace of mind there after pouring out my emotions to the divine power, then I have to roam around in pondy bazar and ranganathan street to do road side shopping, have to eat in Murugans Idly shop, and should drink coffee in the road side restaurant balaji bavan where I used to go almost daily in my college days and finallllllllllllyyyy must not miss the Marina beach.

Marina beach - wow if I think of it only i feel excited...just to stand in the water, watching the waves and the moon and stars and what not..its a bliss and I have been there everytime when I had felt lonely or sad and everytime I had to make a decision its Marina....

So with all this TO DO list, I started from Singapore.


What a timing!!!! Our flight got delayed. I think I shouldnt even say delayed it was rescheduled. Instead of starting at 11:0 pm it started only the next day 6:00 am. I really couldnt tolerate the injustice..Between 6:00 am to 8:00 am is when I had planned the temple visits now they are out of question. And then I called up my sis and told her to come to airport with her 8 months baby so I dont miss a second being with them.

Finally we reached Chennai. Wow the feeling you get breathing even the polluted air, is great. Thats what you call the home town :) After reaching home, since I had already missed my moms breakfast, had to settle for mom cooked lunch and filter coffee. When we reached home, by then my daughter was already tired and was cranky and hungry. I couldnt attend any of my friends call because she was almost crying. Finally after making her eat and put her to sleep when I saw the time, It was 3:00. Oh my god..I havent even opened the TO DO list.

Then I called up all my cousins to arrange for the birthday party for my granny. Thankfully it was saturday they were all around and they really helped in that. Then we went to do shopping in pondy bazar. Couldnt do much shopping there becoz of lack of time. But I did go to balaji bavan and had my favorite coffee though. Wow thats one thing done.


We were back around 4:30 pm and then one of my school friends had come and I was spending some time with her By then most of my relatives had come home and so we couldnt go out anywhere. Around 7:00 we managed to decorate and arranged the cake cutting for my granny. It was the best thing, and she was really surprised. Then we planned to go to Marina, but my grandma cant come and she wanted to spend some time with me. So we cancelled the marina.

So thats it. We were back around 11:00 pm put my daughter to sleep and started repacking and then finally spent some time with my parents. Then we started next day to Hyderabad around 6:30 pm. So thats the end of the day in chennai.
This new year, am hoping that we will plan and spend some quality time in Chennai. Hey thats going to be there in my diary for this year TO DO items :)
Time Flies ....

If - Rudyard Kipling

I started to write and started some four topics and left them all incomplete. When I start to write, I never used to get stuck but oops..what hap..
So I wanted to post my favorite poem
Happy New Year to everyone.

If


If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run --
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!