Its been a long time for my standards since I wrote. I was about to write about chennai times, about ammamma, about my parents shashtiyapoorthy etc etc but I was lazy still in the vacation blues. After reaching home, even if I wanted to write, I felt too tired by 10 or 10:30. Today too am tired..Too tired physically too as I am feeling bit feverish because of cough and cold. But I am still here writing as I am too disturbed on the news I heard from my friend.
My friends brother in law expired 2 weeks back and am just too shocked. Not that I know him personally or I am close to him for I dont even know who it is. But shocking is because on the realization of the fact that life is too uncertain.
He was at his early forties having a normal healthy family life with two kids. He was having some stomach pain but never took it so seriously and finally when it became worse aand he saw the doctor they diagnosed it as one kind of liver cancer in its advanced stage with pracitcally no treatment available. So within two days they sent him back home on his request. After the diagnosis he lived only for two weeks.
Two weeks..just fourteen days..I have seen such things in movie..but in reality..what would he do in just fourteen days..Will he have the time to express all his love to all his loved ones..Will he have time to spend and say all that he wanted to tell his kids..Will he have time to set a secured life to his kids..and his life partner.Will he have time to finish all the pending things that he wanted to complete..Will he have time to even cherish few of his dreams..or I want to do stuff...What would he even do...with all the pain and fear of death....Its so scary to even think about it.
How many things we store and keep like the best dress, the best jewellery, the dinner set...how many such reservations we have which are saved for the best ocassion...News like this...makes me feel that every day we live in itself is a special ocassion..Wow We are alive in itself calls for a celebration..May be it sounds too philosophical probably becoz am disturbed by this news..But still it feels right..how many days wasted with unwanted worries..grudges..expectations..etc..How many days wasted by useless arguments..
Why do people hate others..why do some talk in a way to hurt others.
Anyways am just too disturbed about it...and I feel more important in life is to start doing things that we love to do..and do it NOW..Lets not wait for a special ocassion for everything..instead..lets do it now...If you want to let someone know that they are special or you love them..say it now..If you want to give someone something...dont wait..give it now..If you want to cherish any of your dreams..dont reserve it for future..just do it now..
So let me stop here..with an advise to myself..may be..that DO IT NOW.
